Till the World Ends…..

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This is my empowerment song of the morning:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5e_i4l4sBv8.

Yesterday, was a crazy day.  First off, I was just exhausted come the morning.  I had some head pressure in the base of my neck, down my spine, a raw throat, and some fluid in my ears.  The only thing I could think of is to roll back over and sleep it off.  I got up, got moving, and took some appropriate medicine that helped huge.

Then, I got an email from an ex of mine.  It was really kind of pathetic.  I sent a very assertive response back but, not bitchy.  I asked after the fact if I was out of line.  Well, I also told Nomad about the interaction.  It would eventually affect him in a possible social setting and the last thing I want is that to be awkward.  I sent him an email explaining it.  Past is past but, when you are trying to build a future it helps keeping things honest.  The song I left you with is in reference to this situation.  (ON THAT NOTE: Don’t send someone an email to ‘get in touch’ given that you might be seeing someone more often…it comes off like you are avoiding a confrontation

I totally wish I could have seen this dude on the street....I think I would have lightened up....

I worked on a big project all day.  80% of my day was spent with this one project only to realize in the last hour that I had written it up wrong not just once, but 4 times!?!?!?!  I sent the documents off to our vendor confirming it and HA….poor vendor!  So I looked like a royal dumb ass….when it was brought to my attention the 3rd time, I adjusted it and sent it off….then the 4th time I fell dramatically, upon sounding the “Eff my life” call thru the office, in kind of a laugh/cry mode.  Kind of collapsed to the lobby ground. Tears were streaming as I was laughing at the luck of the day!  How nuts is that?!  Then Herb called twice looking for me…that is all I will say about that one.

As I was clocking out and running off to help mom, I still had a smile on my face.  I might have just had a mini-meltdown but, I wasn’t going to let that defeat me.  Keep on pushing little engine….keep on pushing on thru….

Just as I was finishing up at work I get a frantic call from my mom…poor thing.  I had typed out a Track schedule earlier with all the dates and practice times.  Well the schedule at school changed and they couldn’t hold practice.  So my mom and I ran over to the track to catch people and send them home.  A lot of them were OK with it.  My mom felt horrible.  I found out later that she too had a pretty crazy terrible day!

I came home after that and slept then Nomad texted me.  “Do you want to talk about your day? Are you still stressed?” (me) “A little bit but it’s ok.  I don’t want to damper yours at all.” (Nomad) “Nonsense…we are here to saddle each other’s toil.”  (me melting at this point)  “hmmmm…” (Nomad) “?  We are here to hear each other.” (me) ” Thanks doll. 🙂  You are a good team player!” (Nomad) “:) Your welcome”  Then, when I was done getting ready for me I called him.

Then I sat and created a post followed by a sound, VERY SOUND, sleep.  Sometimes it takes a circus day thrown in there to make you appreciate the calmness in our own lives.  It makes me savor the moments to which I can sit in silence and hear nothing.  I just zone out.  I needed to have 5 minutes of that yesterday…but, if I need to slow down today that is exactly my course of action.

Here is a good song to end on…http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lXrFBsYKrgE.

PS: perfect end to the night is run/walking 5 miles with Katherine (using mile markers as food items…pancakes, waffles, coffee….etc) then proceeding to go to IHOP!  All is well in the Universe!

Full Body Stretch

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Today’s entry…spot light please……..oh and I also need you to cue a drum roll…..will be simplistic and straight to the point.

10 reason’s why my stressful day was relieved by running:

10.  I downloaded some new running music that sounded like something off that Dance Dance Revolution game.  Asian women singing pop songs of today with a beat of 120-150 bpm.  “cuz, baby urrr a firrrewrk….make them say roh roh roh….”  I am not exaggerating.

9.  As I begin to run, I turn my new music on and just start laughing…I have a feeling this is going to be a great run.

8.  The weather was perfect for a great outdoor run.  Sunny, 60’s (F), and just me, my music, and the pavement.

7. As I was running around the track, I got about to a mile, then I started to walk at a swift pace so I could still build endurance.  My body needed to release the stress some how.

6.  Started walking with a woman who so graciously let me steal her “peace of mind” time.  She gave me such great advice!  “Do all you want to do before kids, when your thinking about marrying a person–look at how he was raised, what his family is like, and how he was treated as a child, then lastly don’t change for anyone!  Be that strong woman”

5. While walking on the trail around, it seemed as though everyone was smiling!  Everyone was in such a great mood, how could I not be?  That was the encouragement I needed.

4. There were lots of families out and about…parents walking or biking with their children, couples walking their dogs, and lots of fitness going on out there! (side note: also encouraging!)

3.  1 bug swallowed, 3 piles of goose poop avoided, 1 attack by a dog thinking he was Superman, little kid all of 4 years old riding his bike and flirting with me…

 

2.  I finally got in the zone!  All my crappy feelings of junk went out the door the more I pounded the pavement.  I felt all of my issues just melt away and because of that I was in a better mood!  (YAY!)

AND THE NUMBER ONE REASON…..

1. OK, I don’t particularly like running.  I do it for the mental challenge.  Yesterday, I ran/walked 4.95 miles and I felt accomplished.  I felt like I had finally “OWNED” something of my crazy stressful day yesterday!  I needed to feel some sort of ownership…Nomad helped me realize that.

When I got done, I just turned on some Mumford and Sons: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_KCg_QEHtkY&feature=related.  This song symbolically is my reminder when I am in a bad mood I NEED TO say yes and let love grow in my heart.  The lyrics say no, but I choose yes!  One moment of defiance.  😉  This group just kind of has been adapted as my solemn moments.

Full body stretch.  Starting with my neck, then arms…then the hamstrings.  I spend a lot of time stretching my jello legs out and when I am done…I stand up and reach to my arms to Heaven and ground myself and it feels amazing.  My brain has been massaged of all its toxins, my spirit feels renewed, and my body is weak with accomplishment.

Unsafe breath…

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Have you ever had one of those days where you just know your breath just is not going to get fresh no matter what you do to it?  No amount of gum, brushing of teeth, eating pallet cleansing foods, chomping on mints, or using mouth wash is going to help this issue.

I feel bad when this happens to people.  I, of course, have NEVER had this happen before and I just am having a hard time relating.  Sigh.  I do feel bad for the other people having to talk to them directly and Lord knows they probably don’t even know it is just that bad!  So out of politeness, can you give them a piece of gum?  Will that be enough to give them a clue?  How embarrassing!  Is it cordial to yank them aside, and say “Darling, you need and breath mint or something stat!  If you think that cute boy that you are talking to is interested…we need to get this hygienic problem in check!  No one wants to kiss a good looking skunk?!”

Anyways, more stress piling up today.  Deep breathes….per usual.  Today is just a little aggravating.  But, things are going OK otherwise.  It’s nothing I cannot handle.  I know I am loved and that alone is enough to get me thru this mini-funk I am experiencing.  Nomad and I have been talking so regularly and it is refreshing.  Even when we aren’t talking, I can feel him.  AND better yet, when I am upset I just connect with his spirit and he calms me down.  Simply amazing.

The CatMan

Some kind of wonderful!

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Saturday shaped up to be a great day…after cheer I met up with the C/Katherine’s and we had a grand time.  We ate, laughed, and ran around senseless.  It was so much fun.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HtXOVKNazYU

So I went to Walmart…got hit on…and texted poor Nomad!  It made me chuckle a bit.  I sent him the response “If you weren’t in the picture I so would have thought about it ;)”  Then it didn’t hit me until he made a comment…”I couldn’t find anyone better than you, but you may find someone better than me.”  I couldn’t believe how sweet that was!!  EXCEPT, I had to correct him and remind him that was not true at all.  “I won’t find anyone better than you love”  (yeah go a head and say it….AAWWWWWWW!)  Am I making you sick with any of the talk of Nomad, yet?

 

 

 

I have come to realize that you are only as strong as your support surrounding you.  Where you may or may not have people physically there for you, you have plenty there spiritually there.  Only thing is, you cannot see them!  Interesting thought, huh?  You are never actually alone.  Your support group is unending.  Don’t forget those who are there for you both seen and unseen.

Creative Cursing…

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I picked up this book while with Nomad called Creative Cursing.  Well I figured since I have a “sailor mouth” anyways, why not?  I might learn something….or laugh a little harder?  You never quite know with me.  I brought this into the office with me yesterday.  I thought it might be able to loosen everyone up (or get us a sexual harassment suit!) from the already tight tense atmosphere.  OH it totally did the trick….

Most of these words I will not mention for fear of there being little ears…that is not the way I want to scar children.  I already scar them with my spastic and random personality…I am like a nothing they have ever met and because of that I am preeeeetttttyyyy sure they might at first be afraid of me.  That’s ok.  I would rather them be afraid of me for being a little weird than me having to put the “fear of God” in them.  Maybe that’s just me though.

“Nut Muncher” (hehe)

“Panty Bandit” (your face is slowly turning red…I see it!)

…at least I’m not a “Schlong Jacket” (hahaha)

“Sissy Wanker” (what’s that?)

“Snot Biscuit” (eww haha)

…Stop being such a ….”Wench Waffle!!!” (at this point I know you are just crying…)

…YOU….ARE…. SUCH-A…. “Slut Sniffer!!” (bahahahaha!  We all know one of those…hahahahahaha)

…oh yeah?…at least I’m not a “Sack Beater”  (come on….at this point if you are not just about to wet yourself then, there is something wrong with you!!!!)

This is my therapy.  Relatively innocent, or at least I feel like it is!  I woke up not in the best of moods this morning.  I literally had to force myself to choose to smile and that wasn’t too hard because the sun started to shine!  WHOO!!

Have you ever just realized that things are just as good as they ought to be?  Prayers are answered and everything is starting to make a little more sense!  🙂

Come on Nomad?  Really? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FDUOcHg5ijg OK nothing implied here but, I really like this song at the present moment.  Kind of funny.  Freaked you out didn’t I??  😉

xoxo

CatMan

Life as we know it!

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Currently, still on cloud 9 still wearing off from this weekend….Nomad and I had a blast.  When I driving to get to see him, it took forever.  I really just wanted to be there and it seemed like it was all about “be patient”…uh huh…well when I got there he got a phone call.  It was cool being there for some cool big news.  That was really special.

The next day we went window shopping, to eat great food, and then to Gnomeo and Juliet.  We were the only couple there.  It was great.  You should have seen all the jealous parents with their kids “Dangit, I wish I could have a night like that again!”  🙂  We saw so many little girls and pregnant ladies, that it wasn’t even funny!

I have been having weird dreams.  Outside of work being crazy, me beginning to start a new wonderful chapter in life, and working on bettering myself…I am just now finally finding the time to write!

Life is full of dilemmas, choices, and opportunities to have happiness.   Some circumstances happen that change our whole perspective, our whole life.  Sometimes life is full of uncertainty, challenges and wonder.  For those moments, it makes us feel so alive even though we might not seem that way at the time.  We get through the challenges and press on to the next…life is good!  Chalk one up for more melt moments!

 

PS: He sends me roses…

 

Uptown Girl.

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hCuMWrfXG4E

This lovely morning is one of gloom and lots of rain.  I am so excited!  Well here is the best part…I am going to visit Nomad this weekend where it is supposed to rain the WHOLE time!  Then maybe I could convince him that I ‘may melt’ like the Wicked Witch of the West did….for some reason he believes I will be perfectly fine.  Can’t say that I didn’t warn him?!  That is my one and only disclaimer.

Well my bbf (best blogger friend) Techy brought up a great point…I have never posted pictures of my pool boy…WELL here they are!

Last night, I had a doozy of a night that was too good not to share!  I was warming my wax up so I could tame my unruly brows.  Then I went to stir it and it popped!  The hot wax splattered out onto my linoleum floor!  (OH SHIT!)  If anyone has ever dealt or spilled wax before you know how much of a bear it is.  I called Nomad right away “…HEY can you google something for me??”  God love him, he did.  2 spoons, some olive oil and grunting later, I got the majority of it off.  Clearly this Uptown Girl can’t pay someone else to do it so…I was laughing at my stupidity the whole time!!!  Literally, cackling like a mad woman.  Karma…such a bitch!  🙂  Nomad was laughing at me too.  I told him I would get him for that one!  OH man it was still sticky as of this morning and we will see if the “roommates” notice…

Now on to puddle jumping and off to my meetings!  Have a beautiful day and don’t play with hot wax!  Lesson learned!

CatMan

WAY over due…here’s some Joy pass it on!

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What do you do when life gets so crazy that you can’t even think straight?  What do you do when you have been swept down stream on a current never to be thrown off but just completely swept off your feet?  A LOT has been happening so let me catch you all up briefly…YOU LISTEN TO A SONG!!!   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rEXhAMtbaec

1. Nomad and I are progressing well…better than well but, I am giving him 3 dates before he is going to be able to meet my family.  I told him I feel crazy, and he told me I was just being me and anyone that had a problem with it I should say “piss off”.  I think you will enjoy this next pic…

 

Nomad and I...

 

 

2. Cheerleading is cheerleading and I am so ready to relinquish my “Spirit Stick” and move on to bigger and better things.  I love my girls but, the cheerleader is burned out.

3. Work has been CRAZY TRAIN busy.  I will send you a link to our new website when we are to that point…ALMOST THERE!

4. My brother is moving out (we don’t have an ETA, however I am OK with that!)

5. Spring is just around the corner and because the SUN has been showing it’s beautiful face my days have been 100,000,000% better!  I know that’s a lot but the sun makes me so joyful.

 

 

 

6.  Participated as “Abraham Lincoln” on our Special Olympics of Allen County Trivia Team for a local fundraiser.  I went as Abe without legs…it was very fitting!  There is something so sexy about a woman with a beard…..

7.  I have been so joyful for not having any sleep at night…I swear life is so good!

8. Katherine is one of my dearest girls and we sat laughing so freaking hard we were crying and hardly making sense.  I am pretty sure to the “average joe” thought that we were complete idiots!

ONE last moment to share:

Yesterday, I had a massive headache.  I had cheer practice (ugh!), then the night progressed…tentatively I was going to the Chapel for a few brief moments, on to Mass with the girls, then out for ice cream!  After cheer, I was feeling very discouraged.  I basically stated “I didn’t feel so joyful right now because of all the negative swallowing me”  Nomad was so sweet and tried to cheer me up with his kind words.  It made me feel good knowing he was there for me.  Well he told me that I had a joyful heart…I totally just said I didn’t feel that joy though…but glad he could see it.  When I got to the Chapel, I said a few prayers for my cheerleaders and myself.  I then hurried off to Mass so I wouldn’t be late.  I lit a votive candle for a “special intention” but had nowhere to give my donation so I just held on to it.  After Mass, I went and excused myself from the girls and gave my envelope to Fr. I don’t go to this Parish so I was just introducing myself to him.  Fr. James was this Priest’s name.  How wonderful he is.  Well when I gave him my envelope, he told me that I was so joyful!  He said spread that joy to everyone.  I almost cried.  That was exactly what I needed to hear at that very moment.  I felt revived.  I felt relieved and happy.  I felt like I could now go out into the world and let the real CatMan be shown!  My energy had just been restored!  🙂  Then I got to spend the most beautiful time with my girls laughing and carrying on like little school girls.  It was awesome.  When it was all said and done, Nomad and I talked to each other and my whole world was right on balance.  I was right where I needed to be.  Life is SO good!

Remember, when you are discouraged–God sends you little angels to keep you going!  All He asks for you in return is your faithfulness.  Heck, my life is so wonderful!  Here is my joy and I am passing it on!  TAG YOUR IT!!  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MIRFE_1huMc

THE CatMan