Love who loves you…

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Today more than ever I feel loved completely and in whole being.  I have decided that I am straight up obnoxious when I am in a great mood.  Which this could be a good and a bad thing but, then again who cares?  ***OK what the heck Pandora!  You are playing “My heart will go on” Celine Dion on my NSYNC station…kind of not cool.***

Well today’s post is in regards to my amazingly awesome day yesterday.  The work day was long but the reward was greater later.  I got to talk to a friend that I don’t see very often.  I was able to go to my Special Olympics Bowling last night and it was amazing.  I have one or two young adults that I help especially and then I try to mesh between the other athletes.  Last night I have a sweetheart named Kevin B. ask if I was married.  I replied no and he then asked if I would marry him!  (How sweet!)  I told him maybe someday!  Then it was his turn to bowl.  This makes my 2nd marriage proposal in about 3 months.

awwwww!

I wish people were capable of that innocence love.  My athletes are some of the most loving, accepting, and wonderful people I know.  Whenever I feel unloved or if I have had a bad day, they totally make life better.  You see the thing is people are capable, but in order for them to experience that kind of love they have to be willing to give everything away.  You see these athletes are ones that might be seen as disabled but, aren’t we all a little impaired in certain ways?  Their intellectual disability causes them to see everything innocently as it should be.  I know that it is difficult sometimes and thankless as parents to have a child with this disability, but the parent’s that come to these events are so supportive.  They never complain, they never give up, and most of all they are there to be their child’s cheerleader!  How blessed am I am able to witness that???  Extremely!  They genuinely love, what most people couldn’t even fathom.

I have friends that that have been there for me and loved me and made me feel worth a million bucks again when my heart and spirit was crushed.  For those friends, I genuinely love back.  They are fabulously divine!  I noticed that I take those people for granted.  What makes a good friend is not how often they are there BUT, when they are there for you.  The timing is everything you see.  God places these wonderful friends in your life when you need them the most and it’s their choice to choose to help or not.  Feel blessed when they do choose to help.  That is a true friend.

Genuinely take care of those who love you.  If they do something great or were there for you, make sure that you thank them in an appropriate way.  Make sure that you recognize that.  They will know that the genuine love is mutual and that friendship is true.

Love love love...

By the way, the music selection definitely got better when I switched my station to Pandora: Def Leopard …..OH yes Gotta love the 80’s!!!

Dream Interpretation….

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I have been a little stressed lately.  My dreams have been reflecting them I am afraid.  Last night, I had a crazy dream that I was going to a faucet and I was getting a glass of water and I urinated on myself (i know gross right??) but instead of getting embarrassed that someone might have seen I just poured a glass of water on myself and laughed “ooops silly me!”

In looking up my dream interpretation this made the most sense: “…To dream that you are urinating, symbolizes a cleansing and a release of negative or repressed emotions. Depending on your dream context, urination is symbolic of having or lacking basic control of your life. You are literally “pissed off” and not expressing yourself in a positive or constructive manner.”  BINGO!  What do I do now to fix that?

Instead of getting “pissed off”, I need to positively deal with them thru therapeutic acts.  Right now, I am listening to 80’s music.  I am trying to let go of the awful situations I cannot change thru singing.  Does it help?  Um…maybe?  But not even Billy Joel could cure this one…I can’t really sing so I feel bad for the other’s in the office.  Do I care?  No!   Maybe I will paint more?  Maybe…but that costs a lot of money sometimes…MAYBE I COULD pick up a hobby!  YES!…but which one?   Maybe I could just laugh?

After today, I might just be insane.  Might as well throw my scissors into the hallway.  I am tired, frustrated but not quite defeated yet.  I am discouraged, but not defeated.  I think I will choose laughter as my therapy at this point in my day.  Stay tuned….

My kind of Therapy! Laughing with a full heart 🙂

Maybe I am getting frustrated because I am in the process of learning how to transform the ugly negative in my life into light and love but I AM NOT THERE YET! What a transformation of patience (that much like singing–I don’t have that one either!)  One of these days I will get there…Promise!