Behind every man….

Behind every great man is a woman rolling her eyes.
Jim Carrey

 

There is great truth behind this comment.  Think about it….how many “great ideas” come before one is achieved?  (eye roll)  The answer is too many.  Just do it.  Stop over thinking it and just do it already!  How hard can it be?  ha.  OH very hard apparently.

When we over think we are allowing our brain to over ride our natural ability to listen.  We process until we process something to death.  Now that is not very productive AT ALL.  So why do we do it?  Good question!  Because we are control freaks.  So, today is about listening to the whole thing not just one aspect but ALL aspects.

This week, I managed to throw my back out picking up a box.  Yes it was as silly as it sounds.

Image from: http://www.superstock.com/stock-photos-images/1597-59694

I went to the chiropractor and a massage therapist.  I feel 95% better.  After last night, I have more mobility than I did and I feel like she really did a great job!  Crunch, crunch, crunch…I was a regular hot mess.  When I got home and relaxed–I felt so much better.  I was drinking lots of water.  I am a little sore, but it was well worth it.  Icing has been helping.

While I was in the massage, she told me that she was trying to intuitively listen to where my body was pulling.  So can I do that too?  Sure I can!  That isn’t hard…I mean sometimes it can be tricky…but anyone can listen.  I decided that I was really going to make a conscious effort to listen better.  Shut the pride and brain down and listen to what my heart and body were saying.  Seek the listening first.  Then adjust accordingly to seek balance.  That is going to be my goal.

Maybe if I had just listened to my body say “that’s too heavy CatMan”…I wouldn’t be in such pain.  The parts of the body are so intricate and everything hinges off each other.  This being said, your heart, physical body, spirit, conscious mind, intellect, emotions, soul and over all energy have some “words to say about you”.  If you want to feel your best?  All you have to do is listen!  When something is out of whack, it might scream at you until you do something about it.  Simply stated, if I had listened to my body saying “no way!” I might not be in this mess.  I would have saved approximately $167 and the pain of looking like a sissy.  Nothing hurts the ego more than that.

Through all of this Nomad has been a peach.  Very empathetic as he has back issues and knows it is a pain in the rear literally.  These painful times are a good reminder to balance.  Where there is an action, there is an equal cause or reaction…or something like that.

Well speaking of Nomad, he is doing some really great things.  He is looking into going back to school.  This is a very positive long time coming decision.  I am really proud of him.  It took him a decent amount of time to discern this whole thing and figure out what his best option was going to be and I think he is on the right track.  Maybe not exactly to the program he needs, but he is getting there!  I have been trying to encourage him, motivate him, and etc…but you know people move in their own time.  (eye roll)

❤

Advertisement

Shift in Focus. Adjust Perception. Change in heart.

‎”When one focuses too much on the negative, all they see is road blocks. When one focuses on the positive, that is where one finds hope…” (me)

Image from: http://myyardourmessage.com/files/signs/168/image-2e7fc21b5cc443f8ba47c3110a2b8bb2_t480.jpg

 

It is so easy to allow ourselves to be drug down by the muck surrounding us or listen to others that are only trying to bring us down.  Unfortunately, it is harder to be a leader than it is just to allow us to be sucked in to the abyss.  It is so easy to listen to the negative bringing us down….then we crash…If we ever expect to make it past tomorrow’s muck we must be willing to change our focus and stop listening to the outside noise.  Focus on what is good.  Focus on what we have going for us and focus on hope.  Hope is a key component to this whole situation.

One way I like to ensure that I don’t become a dirty muck pie is to visually wipe myself clean (literally take my hands and fling off the negative) and affirm myself often.  I constantly need to remind myself exactly what my purpose is.  Without affirmation, we can lose focus.  Something simple would be “I am a vessel to which God uses for His Good Works.”  I also like to personally make take my focus deep inside of me and allow God to transform from the inside out.  Think about it, this takes YOU out of it and allows Him to work His magic.  “Send my mind, body and soul into light and love” is another great affirmation.

Human’s are naturally imperfect.  We will always have flaws.   By taking us out of the mix, we are able to recognize we are a tiny part of this bigger picture.  It is amazing to understand what your purpose is and to fall in line with the circle of life!  Each little purpose that we all have is apart of a bigger entity.  We might be small, but the purpose of the small is equal of importance to the bigger picture’s results!  Without the little parts, the picture will never be fully complete!

Next key component…adjust your perception and do not make anything bigger than what it is.  You own that girl….or guy?!   This is a true test of inner peace when you can keep everything in check.  You spill coffee and it goes down the front of your shirt…take a deep breath and embrace it.  We have all been there and you know what?  Starbucks has a shirt with a “printed coffee stain” down the front of it!  You can get that for the bargain of $80 at your local department store.  Someone cancels on you, again.  OK.  Not a big deal!  That is life–so what are you going to do now?  Maybe go on a walk, or find a little cafe’ close and just observe!  Life is good remember.  It’s not the end of the world.

Now we are focused.  Everything is in check and balanced, so now what?  Now we have to make the most important change!  Change in our heart will not just happen overnight.  It takes time to get ourselves back to a state that is more enjoyable.  Let me explain….http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eefP4bG2EkI&feature=related

When we were children, we had very little to worry about and things seemed relatively easy.  Something happens to our heart as we grow up to be adults where we allow the muck of the world to steal our innocence.  Now it seems we are always stressed, always on the go, and always rushing without really taking time to smell the roses.  This is definitely a problem.  When this situation gets to this point, we are really missing out on living.  Those little things as a child we so dearly loved are now buried under adult junk.  UH OH…now what?  A change of heart is needed to keep in balance.

Start simple.  “Live simply so that others might simply live.” (Mother Teresa) Learn to notice everyone on the street, yes even the weird ones.  The people who are the most interesting are the one’s (usually) last noticed.  Dare you to talk to one!  (Oh did your mother tell you not to talk to strangers?  Well it’s fine now, you’re an adult!)  Learn to ask people questions when you don’t understand.  Learn how to give your time and knowledge to helping others succeed.  Hey they might thank you later!   Learn to get back to that child like innocence and you might just find yourself living an even more incredible life.  Take the ownership back and start living life with a purpose!

❤  CatMan  🙂

Tonight’s Observation: Caramel Corn is Good

I love this fall weather not only for the change and beauty of the weather, but for the food and snacks associated with this time of year.  Take for instance, we have two major holidays to which you dress up, play the role of someone else and receive candy….and the other holiday encourages you to indulge in home cooked meal and have parties to bring people together.  Seriously, the only time I will encourage and promote being anyone but your normal self.  It is good to bust out of our boxes and get the creative juices a flowing!

Boots, sweaters, costumes, football, family and get-togethers!  Transitional changes in the weather, in yourself is you are open to it, and probably being OK with adding a few pounds to the hips from all the goodies….oh they tempt me so badly!  Why must I have a sweet tooth!?  WHHHHYYYYY?

Transitional seasons can make someone feel so alive.  Out with the old and in with the new.  Clean out your house and make room for new growth and development figuratively and literally speaking.  A time to examine your heart and the house you keep.  What a great opportunity for growth and preparation for a second chance?!  Personally, I am trying to focus on listening more.  I need to balance and find quiet moments whether I can find them for five or ten minutes vs. longer extended periods of time is irrelevant.  I just need to find them.

Tonight I found the Caramel Corn just staring at me.  It was just sitting on the table.

Image from: http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/paula-deen/grandma-pauls-caramel-corn-recipe/index.html

I was minding my own business, yet that tricky little something else  got me…..the inner dialog between me and Mr. CC went something like this:

CC: “How YOU doin’?” (eye brow raising)

CatMan: “Um…seriously?  Since when does Caramel Corn talk?”

CC: “Look how incredibly good I look!  ummmhmmm….I am so yummy you just want to take a handful of me and you know….*wink*”  (yes a wink…)

CatMan: “Yeah I am trying to get into shape and you REAAAALLY aren’t helping my cause…so good bye!”

CC: “What?  Wait, wait, wait….just take the lid off and look me in the eyes….I think we are a match and I want you to handle my goods…if you know what I mean…just one whiff…”

 

By this point, I was very inquisitive as to why the Mr. Caramel corn was “talking dirty” to me at the kitchen table…it was very puzzling.  Not to mention disturbing!  BUT maybe he was just taking advantage of my brief moment of weakness.  The CatMan is ONLY human you know…OK so here is how the rest of this went down….

 

CC: “Come on!  I might be a little sticky…BUT I will do you well…I taste so good…just open the lid and smell my sweetness…OH I will never disappoint you CatMan, if you allow me to show you.”

CatMan: “Maybe just a little whiff will be enough…I am not having any Caramel this late at night…”

(opening the lid I was totally sucked in and it was all over from there!!!) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0rqDkDhkJKQ

 

CC: “Yes, yes….go on…touch me!”

CatMan: “Nope not doing it!  Sorry…..well maybe just one but that’s it….(like I said this is all internal…I am NOT that crazy…)…I can afford just one piece and I will be good….ugh…I am so weak…stupid Caramel Corn…” (I reached my hand in and pulled out a ball of goodness, we made eye contact and I just got weak in the knees…)

CC: “Try a taste.  Just a bite is all…”

CatMan: (staring this little ball down)  ‘Just one’ “ohhhh…you are so good Caramel Corn…” as I chomp myself to a 400 calorie mistake…(I put that piece in my mouth and how satisfying!)

CC: “See how do I taste?  Good, huh?  I told you I would never disappoint you…you kind of like me don’t you?”

What was happening on the inside of my mouth as I just couldn’t resist anymore. Literally the inside of my mouth was doing this:   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gFz2WkVAk38

Then it was ALL OVER….Mr. Caramel Corn won….and my only response?

CatMan: “Mr. Caramel Corn, you were right about one thing…you are VERY good….Bastard….”

ALL I could do is shake my head in discussed…well there is alway tomorrow right?

So what’s this evening’s observation?  Caramel Corn is good.  sigh…just not very good for my hips!  Darn it!

 

Interesting Advertising…Enjoy the Silence

First thing you might notice:  theme change.  Comments are welcomed!  AND oh the other good news, I have made it to 100!!!  YAY!  Yes one hundred silly!  No joke…BLOG POSTS not AGE!  Geesh!  And got a Twitter account.  I think I felt your jaws just drop…FOLLOW ME @ BanditMetRoses

Well today I was talking to a good buddy of mine today regarding advertising.  Advertisers are getting more and more clever in the way things are presented to their “followers” or maybe just potential customers.  Take for an instance this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rIu5B3Fsstg.  Notice anything interesting about it?  Go ahead watch it again….do you really think that this happened?  Or was this person hired to demonstrate the “GoPro” brand?  Cool, huh?

This is the “GoPro” sponsored highlight reel from Summer X-Games 17: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MkgMXkayvQk.  Since it was sponsored, you don’t really feel like it is a traditional advertising method which come across more boring and blah.  This one seemingly isn’t so forced because it allows the story of the athlete and just seeing a “trick through their eyes” as intriguing!  It makes you want to see how they do it.  Next component is “why”  they do it!  One can build a segment literally just like that!  In a snap!  And guess what?  They didn’t put a commercial in there once!  So you got all the info and exposure to the ad with out the annoying “Billy Bob Jo here!  We can vid-E-O tape you doing trick after trick with our BRAND NEW GoPro….yada yada yada…”  It’s invasive!  So, advertising people had to get much smarter and “invite” the consumer to learn more!  Inviting is better because then if it’s too much you have control over how much is too much.

Image from: http://www.mansibhatia.com/2010/05/silence/

This is one tactic they use to continue to reach out to their consumers.  In today’s market place, a business’ success is based on how much they engage with their consumers balanced with ROI (return on investment).  AKA Spend money to make money.  This can be said with any field, line of work, or product.  How do they find that out?  Well they test it!

Take you as an example.  Take your blog for a second and think about the ways you engage your readers?  What do you find other’s actually are interested in or maybe what AREN’T they interested in?  What is your “target” for readers?  Why do you write what you write?  What’s your message?  Well did you just realize that this blog is now an extension of you?  You are actually advertising for YOU through your blog.  The whole point is to gain followers and find like-minded people….right?  It can help you find a community of support and friends.  You might not do it for money or anything, but pure pleasure yet, it is still advertising YOUR thoughts, YOUR frustrations, and YOUR life or your stories.

Interesting how advertising happens everyday without a second glance or notice.  Are we becoming numb to “over stimulation”?  I think that is part of it.  I also think we are so quick to put so much out “there” for people that we forget to have a personal life.  There is no filter to the information provided!  You might be saying defensively, “But I still have time to do all my chores, feed the kids, and run them to soccer practice…”  I understand that 100%.  But do you have time for relaxing?  For peace to infiltrate your mind and heart?  If you do, then BRAVO to you!  Balancing all of that is awesome!  We need balance…

 

One of my favorite quotes:  “We need to find God, and he cannot be found in noise and restlessness.  God is the friend of silence.  See how nature – trees, flowers, grass – grows in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence…We need silence to be able to touch souls.”  Mother Teresa

 

Here is just an example of a second approach that is even better.  By recognizing love and good in a physical sense of others…isn’t that a novel idea?   Silence carries a negative connotation.  We think because we aren’t doing something going a mile and a half a minute, things aren’t right.  But, it is in silence to which creativity is alive!  Now my challenge to my followers is this, how can we translate that to the online world?   How can we see through the noise and see the good?   How do YOU test this to see if it works?  I want to know how you find the silence in this constant stream of “tweet tweet”  Seems like quite the paradox doesn’t it….well that’s why it’s a challenge!  What are your thoughts?

❤ The CatMan

Gotta keep your head up!

Today, for the first time in many years, I have horrible big bags under my eyes.  I have had a doozie of a morning and it is going to be crazy from here on out.  I am going out-of-town tomorrow for 2 weeks.  That means packing, work items, orders have to be placed, etc.  I just have been trying to get things done.

Since April, I have been under the assumption that I was flying out Friday evening.  I realized on Monday that it was AM not PM!  I had to rearrange everything.  You know what they say about making plans, don’t you??? Change is inevitable and they are even better than the original!  So because I was up late packing, dealing with work issues, and hanging out…I have bags under my eyes.

Image from: http://facialexercisesguide.com/19/eye-bags-how-to-get-rid-of-bags-under-eyes/

2 Weddings and an X-games….WHOOOO-HOOOOOOOOO!  Starting point: Spokane Washington.  2nd stop: Los Angelus.  3rd stop: NY.   I am trying to fit everything in one bag.  So far it has been a success. (knock on wood)  I have just a few more items to go to which I will deal with this evening yet.  I have decided not to actually pack a hanging bag as I will be carrying my computer with me.  The humor in all of this is I am cool, calm and collected.  Is it good to say I am getting this much-needed vacation that I have deserved for so long?  Yes, I think it is good.

I am learning a lot about myself thru this time in my life.  For an instance, being organized makes life a little easier.  It DOES pay off.  I was really smart about doing laundry right before I had to pack so I just laid everything in their piles and proceeded from there!  (one of many short cuts)  I am also learning that patience and trust do actually make things easier to deal with instead of being an emotional hot head.  My thinking and thought process is way different than most people, especially the one’s I work with.   For whatever reason, I am usually the only one that stands up against people arguing and pointing out the lack of productivity and negative energy being spit back at one another will not produce any different responses.  Why don’t we take action and do something about it rather than chew each others heads off and point fingers!  Just a thought, of course.

Another really stunning conclusion that I have realized is by setting a positive balanced example for people, it too really can produce fruitful results.  When you are balanced, happy, and positive most the time…people see that innately in you and they desire to be like that.  The problem is that most humans just see what is on the surface instead of digging deeper into a person’s composition and finding out WHY they act the way they do.  The WHY question actually takes an amount of expelled energy from the party asking it and because we are lazy and don’t care that much about each other we continue to judge from a person’s outward presentation.  This is so wrong.  Think about it this way.  What if you could see a person’s potential….and see what fears were holding them back.  What if you could open their heart and eyes to that and become closer friends or acquaintances?  Think if we all just invested asking “WHY” to just one person!  How much better would you feel over all-knowing that someone is actually caring to take the time to get to know you a little better.  Personally, I would feel pretty great!

Lastly, by looking to positive verses the negative, one can allow that positive energy to change and transform them inside out.  “What we achieve inwardly will change outer reality” (Plutarch).  Inwardly looking to the positive (step into the light!), inwardly seeking a great balance, and making sure myself is in check.  That’s how I am going to live my life, take action with me and move out.   Then, maybe I can gather new perspective on situations and to be able to change other people’s outlooks in life.  You can positively take ownership this way.  Negative weighs you down too much!

Go with the flow, life it too short to worry.  Make your plans but, be flexible and open to change.  It works out the best and keep your head up!  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CmrOB_q3tjo&ob=av3n

Chao!

WAY over due…here’s some Joy pass it on!

What do you do when life gets so crazy that you can’t even think straight?  What do you do when you have been swept down stream on a current never to be thrown off but just completely swept off your feet?  A LOT has been happening so let me catch you all up briefly…YOU LISTEN TO A SONG!!!   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rEXhAMtbaec

1. Nomad and I are progressing well…better than well but, I am giving him 3 dates before he is going to be able to meet my family.  I told him I feel crazy, and he told me I was just being me and anyone that had a problem with it I should say “piss off”.  I think you will enjoy this next pic…

 

Nomad and I...

 

 

2. Cheerleading is cheerleading and I am so ready to relinquish my “Spirit Stick” and move on to bigger and better things.  I love my girls but, the cheerleader is burned out.

3. Work has been CRAZY TRAIN busy.  I will send you a link to our new website when we are to that point…ALMOST THERE!

4. My brother is moving out (we don’t have an ETA, however I am OK with that!)

5. Spring is just around the corner and because the SUN has been showing it’s beautiful face my days have been 100,000,000% better!  I know that’s a lot but the sun makes me so joyful.

 

Image by: http://www.stewardscompany.com/blog/

 

 

6.  Participated as “Abraham Lincoln” on our Special Olympics of Allen County Trivia Team for a local fundraiser.  I went as Abe without legs…it was very fitting!  There is something so sexy about a woman with a beard…..

7.  I have been so joyful for not having any sleep at night…I swear life is so good!

8. Katherine is one of my dearest girls and we sat laughing so freaking hard we were crying and hardly making sense.  I am pretty sure to the “average joe” thought that we were complete idiots!

ONE last moment to share:

Yesterday, I had a massive headache.  I had cheer practice (ugh!), then the night progressed…tentatively I was going to the Chapel for a few brief moments, on to Mass with the girls, then out for ice cream!  After cheer, I was feeling very discouraged.  I basically stated “I didn’t feel so joyful right now because of all the negative swallowing me”  Nomad was so sweet and tried to cheer me up with his kind words.  It made me feel good knowing he was there for me.  Well he told me that I had a joyful heart…I totally just said I didn’t feel that joy though…but glad he could see it.  When I got to the Chapel, I said a few prayers for my cheerleaders and myself.  I then hurried off to Mass so I wouldn’t be late.  I lit a votive candle for a “special intention” but had nowhere to give my donation so I just held on to it.  After Mass, I went and excused myself from the girls and gave my envelope to Fr. I don’t go to this Parish so I was just introducing myself to him.  Fr. James was this Priest’s name.  How wonderful he is.  Well when I gave him my envelope, he told me that I was so joyful!  He said spread that joy to everyone.  I almost cried.  That was exactly what I needed to hear at that very moment.  I felt revived.  I felt relieved and happy.  I felt like I could now go out into the world and let the real CatMan be shown!  My energy had just been restored!  🙂  Then I got to spend the most beautiful time with my girls laughing and carrying on like little school girls.  It was awesome.  When it was all said and done, Nomad and I talked to each other and my whole world was right on balance.  I was right where I needed to be.  Life is SO good!

Remember, when you are discouraged–God sends you little angels to keep you going!  All He asks for you in return is your faithfulness.  Heck, my life is so wonderful!  Here is my joy and I am passing it on!  TAG YOUR IT!!  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MIRFE_1huMc

THE CatMan

Spin me right round!

Today my friends my head is spinning and my eyes are heavy.  It has been a long day.  The funny and ironic thing is that I was just thinking of a song and it ended up playing 2 seconds on my Pandora.

Today too was a struggle to find balance and stay awake.  It was a brainstorming day to which I don’t have too much to show from it.  I did talk to a few friends whom I haven’t had a chance to talk to in a long while, so that was nice.  Still smiling mind you because that was a good highlight to the day.  🙂

It is going to be a long night.  It will be fun but, definitely a long one.  I have been yawning all day!  Not good.  But, I will just pump a little caffeine in me and continue spinning right round, like a record baby!

Kind of how I feel right now...

Hope you feel more with it than I do friends!

xoxo

CatMan

Being honest with yourself…

Have you ever had someone who has helped your personal growth or development blossom despite all odds?  I have had a good handful of them.  Herb would be one of them and its fabulous.  He has helped teach me a few things about myself and life that I think would have taken me a lifetime to figure out!

For Herb, a giant reason he is so knowledgeable about life is because he has been around since 1914!!  December 5th, 1914….you do the math!  Well Herb is also a recovering alcoholic.  He claimed sobriety in 1960 and joined AA.  His story of how he quit was a funny and sad one.  One day he was at a pub and had been drinking all day.  He ended up drinking to the point of blacking out, jumping on a train and waking up in New York City!  He was so confused as to what happened that for him, it was his turning point.

He has been so touched by the AA 12 Step Program that he has taught me some of the lessons he learned the hard way.  What an awesome program!  The best piece of advice yet, was about being honest with yourself.  That is the start.

Being honest with yourself is a hard thing for humans.  It allows one to critically look at themselves, critique and accept their faults and failures.  Build upon where they fall short of the Glory of God.  We all fall short but, it is how we handle our short comings, what perspective we keep, and how grounded we can accept ourselves for who and what we are.  Each of us was designed differently.  Uniquely.  Special ordered with a designed mission.  If we are really being honest with ourselves, we realize what matters the most in our life–because that becomes very apparent.  We realize what can be eliminated because in the end it is only fluff.  We also may not know what mission lies ahead, but that is alright because we are secure with ourselves.

I know where I stand.  I know WHO I am.  I know what possibilities lie ahead and most of all I have complete faith in God and myself to know I place my own limitations on what I can and cannot do.  God challenges them daily.  I never thought that in certain circumstances I would be doing all of the stuff I am doing and still surviving!  Coaching, volunteering, working full time…finding time for spiritual growth and family time, social time, and rest and relaxation.  It’s an interesting dynamic.  All about balance.

 

EEPPP! Importance of balance....

 

When you finally are honest with yourself, things become very clear.  I have been so blessed to have many people helping me grow in all facets of my life.  Being grounded, being honest with yourself, and realizing your worth are the first steps to finding that balance.  Next step saying no!  🙂

Now, today is Tuesday.  I am a one woman wrecking crew.  I may be super honest with myself in saying this but I feel like I am drunk!  I am taking everything out in my path.  I slipped and almost fell on my butt walking out to start my car, dumped my drink all over my notebook and desk, Herb called at 8:30am, I was told by a friend that tonight was the only night before the new year that would work for him to get together (I have to work and his gift isn’t ready yet!), and I really wished my voice was solid.  🙂  My case of the Munday’s came a day late…about par for the course!  Today I smile at the chaos going on and thank my lucky stars I am alive!

Song of the day:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LOZuxwVk7TU

Have a great day!

CatMan

Throw me a floaty!

Sometimes when we are drowning, we reach out to whatever we can get our hands on to help pull us back up.  For a lot of people, there are so many things that we take personally or to heart.  They aren’t meant to be like that.  But, as humans we can sometimes take ourselves too seriously or forget who we are in the process of figuring out where we are going next.  We are emotional creatures, duh!  For me personally, I am trying to find a balance between figuring out things on my own and depending on others.

I like to learn from others so that way I can make a reflection and apply something from their experience in my own.  This is how I have developed my perceptions.  This too keeps me emotionally protected.  I too am an observer.  I, much like a camera, love to capture the real perception of what or who the subject is.  The truth and beauty of it.  Now, I not so much like the camera, enjoy seeking out what makes my subject really tick.  I am enthralled with digging deep into a person to figure out why they do something or  why they think or perceive the way they do.  There are sometimes however, I must say I have to go with my gut and steer clear from the subject.  Usually they have some emotional negatives attached that I could so easily pick up and frankly I don’t want it!  I have enough of my crap not to worry about other people’s stuff!

As emotional creatures, human beings pick up emotional trash from others.  I like to explain it like a person with tons of strings attached and at the ends of the strings are these tin cans that just follow you where ever you go.  If we don’t let go and cut the strings they just get everything all jumbled and create a mess!  Right now, I am learning to cut those unhealthy strings and move on.  The issue is there is always a scar; so no matter how much you want to forget it, leave it behind there will always be a footprint behind!  How do you forget an emotion?  Yeah, if you find out how, let me know!

Last night I was talked through a panic attack, got to speak with a dear friend who too is swamped in her own life, and hung out with a friend who fed and gave me an amazing embrace.  People so severely take hugs for granted.  A hug was just what I needed to get through my yesterday.  Now I sit with my Jamie Cullum station (oh man that guy just is so sexy!) and am finally relaxed and at peace!  And no, I didn’t dream I wet my pants like I did the night before but, I did throw my scissors out in the hallway this morning.  🙂  If your lucky, maybe I will tell you the story behind it….stay tuned!

Does it seem like scissors are a theme here??  😉

Which one can you relate to?