Living in fear…

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Why do some people continually chose to live their lives in fear?

That really isn’t living as much as it is settling.  Sitting complacent never gets you very far and in fact the very thought of complacency disgusts me!  Why wallow?  Why say I will put up with this when it is only holding you back?  Make the decision and choose not to live in fear today!  Ask yourself, what in my life am I SO afraid of?  I mean really, our fear is bigger in our head than it is in all actuality, right?  So let’s beat this mental game, choose to over come our fears and start LIVING our life the way we were intended to do!

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What are you sitting complacent for?  CHOOSE to live a greater life over letting your fears control your every move.  What are you going to do today to promote your goals, accomplish your dreams, and live this short life to the fullest?  Stay calm and remember baby steps…

What’s it Gonna Be?

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Today, I was in the car driving and one of my favorite En Vogue songs ever.  This one just kind of gets the hamster wheels a going and makes you think “poop or get off the pot”.  Since February I have been dealing with a ton of emotional pieces and changes.  I also recently had a friend call me out stone cold on something that I needed to change about myself.  Here is kind of how it went down.

Over the past months I have been discerning some additions to my already overflowing gift basket of qualities.  I have been considering going back to school in August for hair.  I dealt with an emotional break-up…still hurt, I need to address some aspects of myself that I have to change.  It is apparent that the hurt is still very fresh and there; however those who have hurt me are not so understanding of why I have such emotions and negativity.  I turned into a busy body.  I have also turned into a short fuse.  The fuse tends to go off at those I love the most.  Which haha…well it was my dad 2 weeks ago and Nomad earlier this week.  That is not good.  This person called me out big time and then I said somethings that I really didn’t mean.  They pushed further out because they took it personally and they just didn’t want to deal with it.  I know I am not perfect, but I know darn well that I am trying my hardest to get to where I need to be.  I have a plan and goals…but in the process of getting there I need for this hurt to be addressed as not to fuse out on certain people anymore.

I don’t want you thinking that I only spoke hurtful things because I didn’t.  I said some very honest things too.  These things he needed to hear as much as I needed to hear what he said to me.  He is completely right as well as I was, but even after apology he wont own up to it being HIS fault I am hurting.  He has nothing to say about that.  I cannot change that either.  Unless someone is willing to say, “hey I am sorry for treating you as bad just months back!”  the hurt will always remain.  Maybe it isn’t in the cards for us to be friends at this point or ever.

It is a hard thing to realize that you are ONLY in control of yourself and YOUR journey.  This is a hard thing for me to understand, but I am getting there.  I am coming around slowly.  In my mind, I would want someone to warn me if they thought I was in the wrong or headed down a path of self-destruction.  Apparently not everyone wants that kind of warning.  I think true friends understand that warning system.

How does a friendship move past these little explosions and get on to having a loving relationship?  How is this possible if both hurt parties keep pushing the other away and the misunderstandings still stand?  Both of us are under stress but still is no excuse to walk out…I don’t care what anyone says, that is so not right.  Anyone have any suggestions?  I guess only time can tell…

In the end, the only bridge to understanding greater is to invite others to share their stories with us.  Some tend to share sporadically and others need the verbal invite to feel like you need them to be apart of their life.  I need to lay my ego down.  I need to also lay my pride down…and just keep focused.  I need to pray more.  I need to realistically get these goals accomplished and move the stones, rocks, and mountains God needs me to move!  I think I owe it to myself anyways.

Interesting thought, huh?  No excuses…

I vow to stop making excuses and start living my life.  I need to remain grounded and keep on making headway…Keep going little CatMan….

I heart “The Mouse”!

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Tonight I turn to none other that Mr. Disney himself, Walt Disney:

“A person should set his goals as early as he can and devote all his energy and talent to getting there. With enough effort, he may achieve it. Or he may find something that is even more rewarding. But in the end, no matter what the outcome, he will know he has been alive.”

Tonight I visited the mouse!  I absolutely feel more energized and this feeling is like none other truthfully.  (Don’t think I am childish…you would feel this way too if you were here!)  I think if I could just get a weekly tasted of Disney I would be one of the happiest person’s alive.  No, but seriously……if you think I am kidding you should ask my friends.  MY TRUE friends!

My brother, sister, and I all went as kids to Disney and so began my love of The Mouse.  No joke, being a cheerleader in a UCA environment, all our competitions were at Disney’s Wide World of Sports.  I LOVED IT!  So, I am pretty sure that is all where my love of The Mouse began.

Mr. Y had never been to Downtown Disney, so we went on an exploration!  We saw dinosaur bones, dancing chickens, a man doing the “Macarena“, a Latin Party Central,  a magic store, giant Legos, a Crab Boat, a rain forest where you can eat under a huge mushroom, shops galore, and even a planet devoted to Hollywood!!!  What a treat!!!

What a beautiful reminder to set goals.  A reminder that I CAN dream and I CAN explore and most of all it’s OK!  AND the best part is The Mouse actually encourages it!!!  I have accepted that I am naturally thirsty and curious.  I am loving new environments.  AND overall that is how I learn best!  I am just so excited I was able to see Disney.  When I am there, everything is all new.  I got complemented today, I was all smiles, and I even (for a second time mind you) got compared to Mary Lou Retton!

See some resemblance?

What a precious joyous day!  Mr. Y and I met so many wonderful people today and it all was well worth it.  It was nice being down here and it was nice learning from him.  There were a few people we wrote off at the ISSA Show; they had a burr up their bum….not our fault and we definitely didn’t let it ruin our day obviously.  🙂

When you are feeling discouraged, or you feel like you aren’t as good as what you should be please remember to love yourself and who you are.  “The more you like yourself, the less you are like anyone else, which makes you unique.” (another Walt Disney quote!)  Second, dare to dream!  Dream like Walt Disney dreamt, and you can never go wrong.  What an inspiration to everyone and just think, if we all loved and accepted ourselves as creatures of God and dreamt a dream and we all desired to make it possible….what an imaginative beautiful way of life it would be!   That right there friends is what it is all about!

Please meet The Mouse! 😉