Paint fumes and Pasta

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Today, my mom and I painted my whole room.  It looks beautiful.  It is like a tealy-greenish-blue.  Very summer like and beautiful.  Well what you are seeing below is all of the painted room.  What do you think?

🙂 Painted pretty...sigh

Can you believe all of this fit into one little room???? Yeah there will be some downsizing....

I am still very much in a funk…but, I must say this funk has allowed me to have a cleaner house that eventually will look 1000% better.  Much better huh?  Well that’s life…turning the music up and pressing on thru this madness called life!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8XxBbcrs5KY

Something to look forward to….Super Woman and Nomad are going to be in town in just a week!  YAY!  I might have just tinkled a little bit…..shhhh!  Don’t tell anyone!  😉

Full Body Stretch

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Today’s entry…spot light please……..oh and I also need you to cue a drum roll…..will be simplistic and straight to the point.

10 reason’s why my stressful day was relieved by running:

10.  I downloaded some new running music that sounded like something off that Dance Dance Revolution game.  Asian women singing pop songs of today with a beat of 120-150 bpm.  “cuz, baby urrr a firrrewrk….make them say roh roh roh….”  I am not exaggerating.

9.  As I begin to run, I turn my new music on and just start laughing…I have a feeling this is going to be a great run.

8.  The weather was perfect for a great outdoor run.  Sunny, 60’s (F), and just me, my music, and the pavement.

7. As I was running around the track, I got about to a mile, then I started to walk at a swift pace so I could still build endurance.  My body needed to release the stress some how.

6.  Started walking with a woman who so graciously let me steal her “peace of mind” time.  She gave me such great advice!  “Do all you want to do before kids, when your thinking about marrying a person–look at how he was raised, what his family is like, and how he was treated as a child, then lastly don’t change for anyone!  Be that strong woman”

5. While walking on the trail around, it seemed as though everyone was smiling!  Everyone was in such a great mood, how could I not be?  That was the encouragement I needed.

4. There were lots of families out and about…parents walking or biking with their children, couples walking their dogs, and lots of fitness going on out there! (side note: also encouraging!)

3.  1 bug swallowed, 3 piles of goose poop avoided, 1 attack by a dog thinking he was Superman, little kid all of 4 years old riding his bike and flirting with me…

 

2.  I finally got in the zone!  All my crappy feelings of junk went out the door the more I pounded the pavement.  I felt all of my issues just melt away and because of that I was in a better mood!  (YAY!)

AND THE NUMBER ONE REASON…..

1. OK, I don’t particularly like running.  I do it for the mental challenge.  Yesterday, I ran/walked 4.95 miles and I felt accomplished.  I felt like I had finally “OWNED” something of my crazy stressful day yesterday!  I needed to feel some sort of ownership…Nomad helped me realize that.

When I got done, I just turned on some Mumford and Sons: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_KCg_QEHtkY&feature=related.  This song symbolically is my reminder when I am in a bad mood I NEED TO say yes and let love grow in my heart.  The lyrics say no, but I choose yes!  One moment of defiance.  😉  This group just kind of has been adapted as my solemn moments.

Full body stretch.  Starting with my neck, then arms…then the hamstrings.  I spend a lot of time stretching my jello legs out and when I am done…I stand up and reach to my arms to Heaven and ground myself and it feels amazing.  My brain has been massaged of all its toxins, my spirit feels renewed, and my body is weak with accomplishment.

Melt Moments and an Attack at Walmart…

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It was Wednesday night.  I was listening to new music on my computer and talking to Nomad.  Part of the way through our conversations he asked me if I would like to go to his Military Ball….I have never been to one of those before so, if my schedule allows, why not?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d4UwnYyUrKA This is what began this whole period….the song that seemed not to know how to leave our mind…

Truth be told…I had one obligation and it was at 10am in the morning.  OH this was so do-able.  I drove 2 wonderful hours to get to my destination to see Nomad.  When I got there:  we made a shopping excursion, assembled a chair and get ready for some fun.  The CatMan actually used a power drill (and I didn’t harm or hurt anyone in the process!).  It was lighthearted and just random fun.  There were so many “melt moments” as I call them.  They are the moments that just make you want to just melt into a puddle of mush.  I like feeling mushy.  On our way to the store, we had a weird mushy moment.  We were pulling in and we both at the same (EXACT, VERY SAME) time stated “…just sayinnn….Whoa that was weird!”  There was about 20 seconds worth of  “what the hell do I say after that???”  Then, it was fine.

OK, so I totally need to inform you of this shopping trip.  I have never feared more for my life as I did when we entered the Walmart.  I really almost died about 4 times.  The situation was as follows.  We entered in the main entrance with our list in hand.  At first Nomad was pushing the cart and I decided after this first situation that I totally was going to take charge and push it.  We were looking at pineapple.  The cart was obstructing the aisle way just a little but, nothing for someone to get bent out of shape over.  We hear this beep.  So we apologized  and moved it out-of-the-way.  She literally says “no you aren’t!  My husband might think I’m lost but I have to ….the rest was just as nonsensical as the first part….”  We acknowledged what she said then gave each other a funny look in disbelief….did she really just say “no you aren’t when we said we were sorry?!”  We just kind of laughed it off.  Next, I was easing out into the aisle way and then this cart comes out of nowhere with “I’m a woman on a mission so look the heck out” mode  written all across her face.  Well I was trying to be cautious but, apparently I had to be more aggressive!  In my pursuit to be more aggressive and just go straight for the items on the list, I about took out a 3-year-old.  He looked at me with terror and ran.  The mom was your typical “HEAY…GET YUR LITL’ BE-HEYANND OVR HEAAAR NOOOOW!” SCREAMER AND YEAH…that was about par for the course.  This brings me to my biggest pet peeve in the world next to the sound of slurping, why do parents let their little children run wild in the Walmart!?  Well we get to the check out line and stand there waiting our turn.  By the time we got up there, our pineapple didn’t have the price on it.  SO of course we were those people…

Melt moment number 2–1 being us ‘jinxing’ one another–when he first caught a glimpse of me in my dress.  “Wow…you look sexy.  No I really like it!  You look great!”

Melt moment number 3–when he comes running out of the bathroom with his after shave in hand “Which one do you think I should use….oh….um….ok I guess you were thinking the same thing then…” You see I had my perfumes all laid out ready to ask him already.

Melt moment number 4–getting to the dance, hanging out and actually pulling him on the dance floor for something other than a slow dance  🙂  sigh.  It was awesome.

Melt moment number 5–as we were driving over to the small after party get together, Nomad grabs my hand and kisses it.  HE TOOK INITIATIVE!

Melt moment number 6–sitting and talking about nothing in particular and having a wonderful amazing time.

…there are more moments but, I won’t bore you with them….

The whole night felt amazing.  From the chills, the laughs, dancing, the everything was just wonderful.  I felt revived even though I was tired.  What a beautiful 24 hours filled with melt moments and beauty.  AND READY FOR THE BIGGEST KICKER OF THEM ALL?????  I GOT FLOWERS THIS MORNING!

 

COURTESY of Nomad "Hope these brighten your day as much as you brighten mine. 🙂 The Nomad"

I am the luckiest girl in the world today!!!  😀

Much love,

CatMan

 

Dream Interpretation….

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I have been a little stressed lately.  My dreams have been reflecting them I am afraid.  Last night, I had a crazy dream that I was going to a faucet and I was getting a glass of water and I urinated on myself (i know gross right??) but instead of getting embarrassed that someone might have seen I just poured a glass of water on myself and laughed “ooops silly me!”

In looking up my dream interpretation this made the most sense: “…To dream that you are urinating, symbolizes a cleansing and a release of negative or repressed emotions. Depending on your dream context, urination is symbolic of having or lacking basic control of your life. You are literally “pissed off” and not expressing yourself in a positive or constructive manner.”  BINGO!  What do I do now to fix that?

Instead of getting “pissed off”, I need to positively deal with them thru therapeutic acts.  Right now, I am listening to 80’s music.  I am trying to let go of the awful situations I cannot change thru singing.  Does it help?  Um…maybe?  But not even Billy Joel could cure this one…I can’t really sing so I feel bad for the other’s in the office.  Do I care?  No!   Maybe I will paint more?  Maybe…but that costs a lot of money sometimes…MAYBE I COULD pick up a hobby!  YES!…but which one?   Maybe I could just laugh?

After today, I might just be insane.  Might as well throw my scissors into the hallway.  I am tired, frustrated but not quite defeated yet.  I am discouraged, but not defeated.  I think I will choose laughter as my therapy at this point in my day.  Stay tuned….

My kind of Therapy! Laughing with a full heart 🙂

Maybe I am getting frustrated because I am in the process of learning how to transform the ugly negative in my life into light and love but I AM NOT THERE YET! What a transformation of patience (that much like singing–I don’t have that one either!)  One of these days I will get there…Promise!