Lessons of Day 60-63: Love is patient, love is kind…

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I have learned several lessons this weekend.  Love is not pushy.  Love doesn’t try to force something to happen because WE think it needs to happen a certain way.  Love is not manipulative and love is most definitely not to objectify the person of interest or affection.  Love is not being a brat to someone just simply because you are hurting.  Love is so much more than what we make it out to be.  With love, everything is simply possible.  We must place our trust and faith a little higher and let God drive.  It is rather comforting to know that He is the one in control of my destiny and all I must do is be obedient, ask for the desires on my heart to be revealed, and remain faithful.

I trust everything happens for a reason.  I came across this article today and I simply wanted to cry.  This is as senseless as it comes and I cannot see a reason for this act.  I suppose to draw attention to the fact that THIS is NOT love.  http://www.examiner.com/article/bullied-boy-dies-after-schoolyard-punch-the-face-leads-to-seizures-and-coma.  This is just cruelty.  We say mean things to which can make others feel abused and dead figuratively.  We need to be aware of that so we are not victimizing others.

I learned also this weekend that I have a past.  I have so much that I have done over the course of my short life and that has made me who I am today.  I am not proud of some of the things I have done, but that has made me a better person over all.  I am to the point where I can look at myself honestly.  I can admit and take responsibility for my faults willingly.  I can discuss my faults openly and for that I too am thankful.  That is a huge milestone.

There were many saints who “lived a little” before becoming so pious.  Saint Augustine is one of them.  I draw much inspiration from him.  I also see so much in forgiving one’s self for their faults.  I realized that I had already been forgiven by the Big Guy, but I needed to be forgiving myself which I think is almost harder than asking for forgiveness in the first place.  It is a different spot to be in to be honest.

I think personally being able to be honest with yourself about who you are and what you desire to become is the beginning of truly seeing yourself as God sees you.  We are each a gift.  We need to view and acknowledge ourselves as such or else I do not believe that we can ever fully appreciate and love ourself to achieve what it is we ultimately deserve.  We deserve to love ourselves for whatever we have become and what we desire to become and aspire to be.  If we cannot love ourselves for the unique beings we are, then how on earth can anyone else see and love us?  It would make it rather hard if you ask me.

Those who get it….well…get it.  Those who don’t….won’t.  Pray for more people to get it.  It makes the world a better place if so!!

Found this little gem...

Found this little gem…

Day 50: Observe

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Day 50: Each and every day, God never ceases to amaze me with the awesome people and encounters. Love can be seen in other’s great examples. Be patient and observe….love is more than just a four letter word

Life as we know it!

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Currently, still on cloud 9 still wearing off from this weekend….Nomad and I had a blast.  When I driving to get to see him, it took forever.  I really just wanted to be there and it seemed like it was all about “be patient”…uh huh…well when I got there he got a phone call.  It was cool being there for some cool big news.  That was really special.

The next day we went window shopping, to eat great food, and then to Gnomeo and Juliet.  We were the only couple there.  It was great.  You should have seen all the jealous parents with their kids “Dangit, I wish I could have a night like that again!”  🙂  We saw so many little girls and pregnant ladies, that it wasn’t even funny!

I have been having weird dreams.  Outside of work being crazy, me beginning to start a new wonderful chapter in life, and working on bettering myself…I am just now finally finding the time to write!

Life is full of dilemmas, choices, and opportunities to have happiness.   Some circumstances happen that change our whole perspective, our whole life.  Sometimes life is full of uncertainty, challenges and wonder.  For those moments, it makes us feel so alive even though we might not seem that way at the time.  We get through the challenges and press on to the next…life is good!  Chalk one up for more melt moments!

 

PS: He sends me roses…

 

Feel like a circus animal?

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Some days I feel like a circus animal.  No not one of the cool ones like a lion…OR the elephant…or EVEN the bear!  Sometimes I feel like all I do is juggle.  I get to be the caged juggler.  How uncool is that??   I feel strapped down, locked away…like a damsel in distress…..swoon!  But all in all, I feel trapped in my office and to my desk.

Yesterday I got my quilt back.  I had a really awesome thought of taking all of my t-shirts from high school, finding someone else to do this for me of course, and then making a quilt!  My idea of making a quilt would include the magic Genie where all I would have to do is rub the lamp and up she comes!  TAH-DAH!  Here it is!  Well it sort of happened that way…I think.  Essentially, we have a client named Keepsake Threads (www.keepsakethreads.com) whom I had received an announcement that their new website was up and kickin’!  That’s when it hit me….I had to call and see what they could do for me.  They were easy to work with, very friendly and overall just a peach of a company!  Essentially, what they do is take articles of clothing from whatever (whether it be a deceased grandmother’s decorative hanky’s or your uncle’s funky ties OR in my case high school memories thru t-shirts!) and create it into some other form like a bear, scarf, quilt…or whatever you could think of!   I personally wanted a quilt.

Meeting was a breeze.  I literally had three full bags of t-shirts from cheerleading, gymnastics, track and some random ones from Saint’s Alive (my high school’s biggest fundraising event).  I talked briefly to the designer and gave her free reigns.  She is the designer, this is her job, and I felt like she had connected with me enough to provide a quality quilt.  Boy, did she ever!

 

Beautiful swirled gold backing with navy and white polka dotted fringing.

 

Here is an example of what the back of my quilt looks like.  Because Red was a predominant color she used that on the front and complimented it with the Navy and Gold (my high school colors).

 

Vanna White and Mix Master Mike (my little sister and brother)

 

I wish these pictures were bigger but, the detail work, the time and effort involved was such a pleasure to see.  They really did a great job at capturing my memories into a tangible item for me to use and keep.  What a completely amazing piece of art and comfort.

I was very pleased.  Currently, I am trying to juggle about 6 different projects, report to 10 different bosses, all a while keeping my sanity!  YES wishful thinking…I only pray that cheer practice this evening goes smoothly, sushi is not tainted, and the roads remain clear! (fingers crossed!)

LAUGH OUT LOUD MOMENT:  Freaked myself out with my own shadow last night (I saw it in the moon light–as you can tell I am a big chicken…)

 

This would be THIS GIRL!! (pointing to myself!)

 

 

CYNICAL MOMENT:  Facebook stalking last night…someone I was talking to changed their status to single?  Does this mean they want to date the CatMan?  Or use her for her beautiful body?  Does he want a relationship?  AHHH the suspense is killing me!

BEAUTIFUL MOMENT:  Receiving a birthday cake from a friend and getting to blow out my b-day candles a whole 3 days sooner!  YAY!

 

TOTALLY made my day! Happy b-day to meeee!

 

 

LAZY MOMENT: right now……….3…..2……..1………..OK I am done now.

POSITIVE MOMENTUM MOMENT:  Telling three more people about my fundraising endeavors for our Special Olympics Polar Plunge 2011!  I am so excited!  Anyone want to come visit and plunge with me??

 

Today has been slow but sure.  But isn’t it the slow and steady that win the race?  I am keeping with that philosophy.  Being patient will pay off and prevent me from looking like a dumb butt.  I am convinced.

I am going to leave you all and go eat my cake!  Have a beautiful Thursday!!

CatMan

PS: Remember to smile!  You never know when a warm happy smile might make the difference for a friend, fellow co-worker, or random stranger!  Give Love.  Receive Love.

 

awww see now you are all warm and fuzzy inside!