True Humility

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So, in this poking and probing of the meaning of LOVE, I have come to understand actually in order to love you must be selfless.  This doesn’t mean to forget or not take care of yourself as much as it is to develop your gifts and talents for use. Not for your OWN use, but in that of such a way to make a difference in other’s lives.  This to a certain extent requires all prideful emotions and notions to be set aside.

First, we must recognize our pride in the many forms it takes and manifests in our very core.  Once we are able to define and acknowledge where these prideful actions occur or reside, it is only then to which we can begin to cut ties and learn how to live out humility.

Pride can be seen most apparently through self-flattery and vanity.  I am most definitely a victim of this.  I look and what I see is a glorified person.  I shouldn’t be desiring others to see me; however I should be desiring others to see God’s reflection and likeness through my body.  You see as humans we are the vehicle for delivering God’s messages, healing hand, compassion and actually embracing all of these wonderful emotions feelings in witnessing to the very Truth to which he has provided us.  This sounds way easier than it really is.

As humans, due to sin, we really make a mess out of our lives.  We are damaged, hurt, and sometimes we wallow in our misery.  When we wallow, we are just sitting hurt and doing no good for ourselves and others.  I was taught to let that go.  Let as much negative emotions go.  They only weigh you down.  A good friend brought something to my attention in regards to feeling sad or hurt.   He suggested redirecting our hurt into making someone else’s day brighter.  He also suggested always trying to see the good in others no matter what.  How many times a day do we sit there talking badly, gossiping, or commenting on how someone is doing a task or living their life?  That is not fair of us to do that as now we are judging them.  We do not know their circumstance.  In fact, we should be trying to see the good that is in them and setting an example.  This can be hard when this person is someone we don’t get along with well.  We are called to love them anyways.  Love our enemies, love our friends, family and strangers all alike.

It takes true humility to love.  It takes true and genuine humility to make strides forward and it takes a tremendous amount of courage to stand for the Truth as God proclaims it to be.  Once we are able to take our ego out of the picture, see that we are just the vessel to which God works and realize that is the only such way to discover a deeper love.

Letting go of my pride and hurt is hard at this point.  I am really pouring my energy into it so I can do myself and others a favor.  I know it is something I need to do.  The past is finally the past in my mind, soul, and body.  Here is to a new page in this chapter of discovering what it is to really love!  🙂

Here is a good resource for anyone seeking more information on humility.  I like the way it is broken out.  http://www.chastitysf.com/4humility.htm

Bring your awareness up to the plate and do something nice for someone else today!

❤ CatMan

Behind every man….

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Behind every great man is a woman rolling her eyes.
Jim Carrey

 

There is great truth behind this comment.  Think about it….how many “great ideas” come before one is achieved?  (eye roll)  The answer is too many.  Just do it.  Stop over thinking it and just do it already!  How hard can it be?  ha.  OH very hard apparently.

When we over think we are allowing our brain to over ride our natural ability to listen.  We process until we process something to death.  Now that is not very productive AT ALL.  So why do we do it?  Good question!  Because we are control freaks.  So, today is about listening to the whole thing not just one aspect but ALL aspects.

This week, I managed to throw my back out picking up a box.  Yes it was as silly as it sounds.

I went to the chiropractor and a massage therapist.  I feel 95% better.  After last night, I have more mobility than I did and I feel like she really did a great job!  Crunch, crunch, crunch…I was a regular hot mess.  When I got home and relaxed–I felt so much better.  I was drinking lots of water.  I am a little sore, but it was well worth it.  Icing has been helping.

While I was in the massage, she told me that she was trying to intuitively listen to where my body was pulling.  So can I do that too?  Sure I can!  That isn’t hard…I mean sometimes it can be tricky…but anyone can listen.  I decided that I was really going to make a conscious effort to listen better.  Shut the pride and brain down and listen to what my heart and body were saying.  Seek the listening first.  Then adjust accordingly to seek balance.  That is going to be my goal.

Maybe if I had just listened to my body say “that’s too heavy CatMan”…I wouldn’t be in such pain.  The parts of the body are so intricate and everything hinges off each other.  This being said, your heart, physical body, spirit, conscious mind, intellect, emotions, soul and over all energy have some “words to say about you”.  If you want to feel your best?  All you have to do is listen!  When something is out of whack, it might scream at you until you do something about it.  Simply stated, if I had listened to my body saying “no way!” I might not be in this mess.  I would have saved approximately $167 and the pain of looking like a sissy.  Nothing hurts the ego more than that.

Through all of this Nomad has been a peach.  Very empathetic as he has back issues and knows it is a pain in the rear literally.  These painful times are a good reminder to balance.  Where there is an action, there is an equal cause or reaction…or something like that.

Well speaking of Nomad, he is doing some really great things.  He is looking into going back to school.  This is a very positive long time coming decision.  I am really proud of him.  It took him a decent amount of time to discern this whole thing and figure out what his best option was going to be and I think he is on the right track.  Maybe not exactly to the program he needs, but he is getting there!  I have been trying to encourage him, motivate him, and etc…but you know people move in their own time.  (eye roll)

Awake my Soul…and FREAK OUT!

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x2RKb3VNAOo

Today I would like to start with a song.  This post is of a very great band that I rather enjoy listening to once in a while.  They are fantastic.  This song has some pretty profound lyrics.  I cannot take any credit for this topic except for giving you my 2 cents.  Thanks Jacabo!  😉

I think we can all relate.  It makes me think how confused we all can get with our priorities.  So many times we think we need more money, more time, more of everything when really we should be grateful for what we have.  Today I spent some time with Herb.  He was in quite the mood!  I don’t know what exactly was ruffling his feathers but, he was quite the difficult one.  I could satisfy him not in any of the work I was doing for him.  We first had a meeting.  We discussed a few projects at hand.  Then we had a few erruns consisting of going to the bank, eating lunch, getting gas in his car, then making a deposit at another bank…it was good except to say when we got out to the parking lot after lunch he turned and fell.  This was my first experience with a family member or close friend falling seriously not anything stupid like I was walking and tripped on my foot sort of deal.  I dropped my purse and ran to the one side of him and helped leverage him up.  He wasn’t hurt except for his pride.  He stood up quickly and like his mom I yelled to go slow and calm him down.  He calmed himself down and stood there stunned.  It was hard.  He got back into the car slowly and just was so embarrassed.   He told me that when he falls–he immediately goes limp so that way nothing gets broken.  Smart plan if you ask me.

Today was humbling.  I am really glad that I don’t make a ton of money or feel it necessary.  I know I need to make enough to cover all of my bases and I do…but, I really am so blessed to be doing all the stuff I am doing!  I get to leave work and hang out with a cool old guy…

Driving Miss Daisy...if you will....just for comparison sake geez!

…coach a group of young girls and be there for them when they are in their prime time of self-esteem problems and still trying to figure out who they are (not going to lie I am still trying to figure out who I am and I am 10 years older than they are!), as well as help with one of the coolest organizations ever SPECIAL OLYMPICS OF COURSE!  Just think, If I had any other job I couldn’t do half the items I am doing.  With work, my job is so diverse.  I am currently revamping our website.  That is a task in a half but, the group (CLP Marketing) I am working with is phenomenal.

 

I don’t wish for anything more at this point.  Life is truly good.  OH so now on to the funny part of this post….

So my eye wont stop twitching…it’s getting pretty bad and frequent.  SO, I am finding myself grabbing the bottom lid in the midst of these conversations and trying to still talk and then the other person gets so distracted that they MUST inquire…I just blamed it on my “Cat Allergy”…cough cough.

I probably looked like this girl...

 

Next, I was informed last night if I was ever to get pulled over by a cop I was told to just “freak out” as my brother put it.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dUZUmP4N6Vk HAHA!  He had expired plates by accident on the car.  He merely forgot to put the sticker date on it so OPPS.  Well on his way home last night, yup you guessed it…he got pulled over!  He said all he did was literally do everything by the books and freaked on the cops and actually freaked the cop-out!  It was very dramatic and comical as you can imagine.  My brother has very buggy eyes

hehehe....

so they were almost to the extent of deer in the headlights look?  Oh so funny….well long story after the cop told him to hold on and “…roll the dang window up it’s freezing out!” …he came out of it just with a warning.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ArCveCHexqg Then the cop finished up by saying you did everything by the textbook but, that was definitely freaking me out pulling you over!  Love it.

 

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Love the Effervescent,

CatMan