I have learned several lessons this weekend. Love is not pushy. Love doesn’t try to force something to happen because WE think it needs to happen a certain way. Love is not manipulative and love is most definitely not to objectify the person of interest or affection. Love is not being a brat to someone just simply because you are hurting. Love is so much more than what we make it out to be. With love, everything is simply possible. We must place our trust and faith a little higher and let God drive. It is rather comforting to know that He is the one in control of my destiny and all I must do is be obedient, ask for the desires on my heart to be revealed, and remain faithful.
I trust everything happens for a reason. I came across this article today and I simply wanted to cry. This is as senseless as it comes and I cannot see a reason for this act. I suppose to draw attention to the fact that THIS is NOT love. http://www.examiner.com/article/bullied-boy-dies-after-schoolyard-punch-the-face-leads-to-seizures-and-coma. This is just cruelty. We say mean things to which can make others feel abused and dead figuratively. We need to be aware of that so we are not victimizing others.
I learned also this weekend that I have a past. I have so much that I have done over the course of my short life and that has made me who I am today. I am not proud of some of the things I have done, but that has made me a better person over all. I am to the point where I can look at myself honestly. I can admit and take responsibility for my faults willingly. I can discuss my faults openly and for that I too am thankful. That is a huge milestone.
There were many saints who “lived a little” before becoming so pious. Saint Augustine is one of them. I draw much inspiration from him. I also see so much in forgiving one’s self for their faults. I realized that I had already been forgiven by the Big Guy, but I needed to be forgiving myself which I think is almost harder than asking for forgiveness in the first place. It is a different spot to be in to be honest.
I think personally being able to be honest with yourself about who you are and what you desire to become is the beginning of truly seeing yourself as God sees you. We are each a gift. We need to view and acknowledge ourselves as such or else I do not believe that we can ever fully appreciate and love ourself to achieve what it is we ultimately deserve. We deserve to love ourselves for whatever we have become and what we desire to become and aspire to be. If we cannot love ourselves for the unique beings we are, then how on earth can anyone else see and love us? It would make it rather hard if you ask me.
Those who get it….well…get it. Those who don’t….won’t. Pray for more people to get it. It makes the world a better place if so!!