Don’t be afraid to dream and execute!

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Blogger friends,

OK, No excuses…BUT my life has been one hot mess lately.  I apologize but, now I am back.  Guilty pleasure of course…blogging!  TAH-DAH!  I cannot believe how life has all of a sudden picked up!  It seems like any free time that I have had is now devoted to work functions, events, planning, and Nomad.  I must note, Nomad has been a very great encourager when I feel most bogged down with my schedule.  I am signed up to run a mini marathon here in 2 weekends and I am not going to lie, I MAY DIE.  I have been training as much as my schedule will allow, which to be honest isn’t enough at all.  I feel drained, but never fear!  I found this really great “energy potion” that I created….I am patenting this soon but, I have to find the time to do the ordinary “tie your shoe” sort of thing first.  Maybe that will be what makes me millions some day!

I have taken on an adjusted role for Herb.  I have been not only helping him with his work, but also taking on a role of helping gather information for his will.  This is a part that I am unseasoned with in regards to this new experience.  It is bittersweet for me.  As he is a friend whom I can have those awkward conversations with, talk to him about anything on my mind or heart, or just vent when I need to get something out of my head.  He is a great companion and yes as much as Herb grovels about this that or the old biddies in the Cafe’…he has a great heart and good intentions.  So, I must confess this has been a very serious topic as I see him slipping in little ways.  It is inspiring too, knowing that this man has lived more so than anyone ever could imagine and I got to play a minor role in his life.  I know he appreciates me.  I see that; sometimes I have to look a little harder to see it but, it’s always there.

I haven’t had as much time to volunteer lately.  This makes me sad.  I haven’t seen my Special Olympics athletes in forever.  I haven’t been able to do the things I really want to do in a sense, because life has been SO crazy.  I realized just yesterday that I will be out-of-town the next 4 weekends for various things…then in May it gets a little better.  BUT, come end of July–I will be gone for 2 weeks (wedding weekend-X-Games-few days off then WEDDING 2!)  Wedding one is for my sweet cousin Bry-guy on my dad’s side.  Weekend of July 23rd in Spokane WA.  X-Games then is after for exactly a week.  THEN, it is off from west coast to the east coast for the next wedding.  The second wedding is for my cousin Rachy who is my cousin on my mom’s side.  Both of them are awesome and I am so fortunate that they are not on the same day.  🙂  Man did I luck out!  It is going to be so much fun.  Good thing lent is over…guess I can get my moderate drink on!

OH, today!  I almost forgot!  We had our video shoot for our website!  WAAAHHOOOOO!  So, I am now officially up-to-date with what was required of me for that mess.  Now it’s in editing mode.  Cannot wait to see it!  I internally jumping up and down at this accomplishment!  This has been a huge mountain that I have had to climb, fall down a few times and finally made it to the top!  YAY!  Guess I just had to work a little harder.  That is a good thing.

OH and the other thing I totally forgot to tell you…child scissors are not really good at cutting thru construction paper.  As I found out helping my sister with her homework.  Definitely the finest fail moment of the night!  Turn your head to the left….yup that’s me!

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I leave you with this link.  Let this be your inspiration when you feel like you just cannot get something accomplished or done.  Don’t be afraid to dream and execute!  These are the things that continue to get me going even when it feels like I am getting nowhere.   http://www.wimp.com/soccervillage/

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Throw me a floaty!

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Sometimes when we are drowning, we reach out to whatever we can get our hands on to help pull us back up.  For a lot of people, there are so many things that we take personally or to heart.  They aren’t meant to be like that.  But, as humans we can sometimes take ourselves too seriously or forget who we are in the process of figuring out where we are going next.  We are emotional creatures, duh!  For me personally, I am trying to find a balance between figuring out things on my own and depending on others.

I like to learn from others so that way I can make a reflection and apply something from their experience in my own.  This is how I have developed my perceptions.  This too keeps me emotionally protected.  I too am an observer.  I, much like a camera, love to capture the real perception of what or who the subject is.  The truth and beauty of it.  Now, I not so much like the camera, enjoy seeking out what makes my subject really tick.  I am enthralled with digging deep into a person to figure out why they do something or  why they think or perceive the way they do.  There are sometimes however, I must say I have to go with my gut and steer clear from the subject.  Usually they have some emotional negatives attached that I could so easily pick up and frankly I don’t want it!  I have enough of my crap not to worry about other people’s stuff!

As emotional creatures, human beings pick up emotional trash from others.  I like to explain it like a person with tons of strings attached and at the ends of the strings are these tin cans that just follow you where ever you go.  If we don’t let go and cut the strings they just get everything all jumbled and create a mess!  Right now, I am learning to cut those unhealthy strings and move on.  The issue is there is always a scar; so no matter how much you want to forget it, leave it behind there will always be a footprint behind!  How do you forget an emotion?  Yeah, if you find out how, let me know!

Last night I was talked through a panic attack, got to speak with a dear friend who too is swamped in her own life, and hung out with a friend who fed and gave me an amazing embrace.  People so severely take hugs for granted.  A hug was just what I needed to get through my yesterday.  Now I sit with my Jamie Cullum station (oh man that guy just is so sexy!) and am finally relaxed and at peace!  And no, I didn’t dream I wet my pants like I did the night before but, I did throw my scissors out in the hallway this morning.  🙂  If your lucky, maybe I will tell you the story behind it….stay tuned!

Does it seem like scissors are a theme here??  😉

Which one can you relate to?