Full Body Stretch

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Today’s entry…spot light please……..oh and I also need you to cue a drum roll…..will be simplistic and straight to the point.

10 reason’s why my stressful day was relieved by running:

10.  I downloaded some new running music that sounded like something off that Dance Dance Revolution game.  Asian women singing pop songs of today with a beat of 120-150 bpm.  “cuz, baby urrr a firrrewrk….make them say roh roh roh….”  I am not exaggerating.

9.  As I begin to run, I turn my new music on and just start laughing…I have a feeling this is going to be a great run.

8.  The weather was perfect for a great outdoor run.  Sunny, 60’s (F), and just me, my music, and the pavement.

7. As I was running around the track, I got about to a mile, then I started to walk at a swift pace so I could still build endurance.  My body needed to release the stress some how.

6.  Started walking with a woman who so graciously let me steal her “peace of mind” time.  She gave me such great advice!  “Do all you want to do before kids, when your thinking about marrying a person–look at how he was raised, what his family is like, and how he was treated as a child, then lastly don’t change for anyone!  Be that strong woman”

5. While walking on the trail around, it seemed as though everyone was smiling!  Everyone was in such a great mood, how could I not be?  That was the encouragement I needed.

4. There were lots of families out and about…parents walking or biking with their children, couples walking their dogs, and lots of fitness going on out there! (side note: also encouraging!)

3.  1 bug swallowed, 3 piles of goose poop avoided, 1 attack by a dog thinking he was Superman, little kid all of 4 years old riding his bike and flirting with me…

 

2.  I finally got in the zone!  All my crappy feelings of junk went out the door the more I pounded the pavement.  I felt all of my issues just melt away and because of that I was in a better mood!  (YAY!)

AND THE NUMBER ONE REASON…..

1. OK, I don’t particularly like running.  I do it for the mental challenge.  Yesterday, I ran/walked 4.95 miles and I felt accomplished.  I felt like I had finally “OWNED” something of my crazy stressful day yesterday!  I needed to feel some sort of ownership…Nomad helped me realize that.

When I got done, I just turned on some Mumford and Sons: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_KCg_QEHtkY&feature=related.  This song symbolically is my reminder when I am in a bad mood I NEED TO say yes and let love grow in my heart.  The lyrics say no, but I choose yes!  One moment of defiance.  😉  This group just kind of has been adapted as my solemn moments.

Full body stretch.  Starting with my neck, then arms…then the hamstrings.  I spend a lot of time stretching my jello legs out and when I am done…I stand up and reach to my arms to Heaven and ground myself and it feels amazing.  My brain has been massaged of all its toxins, my spirit feels renewed, and my body is weak with accomplishment.

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Unsafe breath…

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Have you ever had one of those days where you just know your breath just is not going to get fresh no matter what you do to it?  No amount of gum, brushing of teeth, eating pallet cleansing foods, chomping on mints, or using mouth wash is going to help this issue.

I feel bad when this happens to people.  I, of course, have NEVER had this happen before and I just am having a hard time relating.  Sigh.  I do feel bad for the other people having to talk to them directly and Lord knows they probably don’t even know it is just that bad!  So out of politeness, can you give them a piece of gum?  Will that be enough to give them a clue?  How embarrassing!  Is it cordial to yank them aside, and say “Darling, you need and breath mint or something stat!  If you think that cute boy that you are talking to is interested…we need to get this hygienic problem in check!  No one wants to kiss a good looking skunk?!”

Anyways, more stress piling up today.  Deep breathes….per usual.  Today is just a little aggravating.  But, things are going OK otherwise.  It’s nothing I cannot handle.  I know I am loved and that alone is enough to get me thru this mini-funk I am experiencing.  Nomad and I have been talking so regularly and it is refreshing.  Even when we aren’t talking, I can feel him.  AND better yet, when I am upset I just connect with his spirit and he calms me down.  Simply amazing.

The CatMan

“Only Prettier” according to Miranda Lambert…..

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So relationships are something that we can all agree on…if you are in the wrong one it can just be so toxic to the spirit, soul, and over all emotion/passion for life.  Why is it so hard to set all crap aside and just get to know someone for who they are?  Pride, selfishness, and over all doubt gets in the way of anything real being experienced.  Is it really necessary for a person to have so many issues that they can’t figure out who they are then attempt to love someone when they can’t love themselves first?  That is so backwards!

A lot of you might know that a year ago this last December (so like 14 months-ish?) I got out of a very toxic relationship with a man, Doubting T, who did exactly as described above: couldn’t selflessly love himself first and in return how could I ever EVER expect him to love me in a healthy manner?  Now don’t get me wrong, there were many red flags from the start.  I didn’t feel like I could share my whole self without being called self-righteous.   I felt like a part of me died….that’s because it did!  I was so blinded because I cared so very much for a man who just didn’t have it in him to love me the way I should be loved.  Toxic as Britney Spears might sing…

We have all been there.  I learned a lot about life because of that experience.  I learned to listen to my gut.  I learned to always be yourself, and those who love you for you will accept that.  If you can’t accept that then you will never fully appreciate them.  You can’t always listen to your heart because it has a check and balance system with your gut and in return that is something that will need to be discerned.  I can honestly say that I have finally have found my peace.

A few months back when he started dating a new girl, I still had a lot of hurt and loose ends.  I had a lot of anger still at that point that literally took me months to work through.  Miranda Lambert’s CD Revolver got me thru much of that.  I can say later this past summer I was in “Crazy Ex-GF” mode…http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A2VZZ-17DHw&feature=related.  No joke.  I didn’t think I was ever going to move past this stage.  BUT to my surprise I did.

I am tired of investing the time in someone who can’t even be a friend to me at this point.  I can’t hold it against him.  His new girl won’t let him be friends with me and even though he promised me we would never get to this point.  He broke that promise.  And that kind of hurt.  I am kind of a ‘word is your bond’ type girl…so you can imagine the type of emotion and hurt involved there.  I just yesterday forgave him for that.  I am completely at peace I must say.  I feel accepting of whatever  happens I cannot change that (Serenity Prayer).  I have peace in my heart and soul.  My spirit feels released from the clutches of the hurt and I feel like a bird released from a long 2 years of entanglement.  I feel like my personal self-development has only blossomed.

I have been blessed with great friends of both sexes that have helped cut down the ivy and vine work that had captured my spirit and soul and release the CatMan that everyone was used to seeing.  They helped release the part of me that had been smothered and for that I am eternally grateful!  Today was one of those days where a friend helped a sister out big time.  🙂

For months now I have had a printer that Doubting T gave me thinking that we might be able to utilize at work.  Well it didn’t end up working with our system…so we sent him a note and said “hey what do you want us to do with this?  do you want to pick this up?”  His response was indifference.  OK.  Fine.  So what did I do?  I loaded that thing in my little bug and called Laugh-a-lot and we ventured out to do one thing.

ANOTHER CatMan Original: This is my proof...evidence if you will...

Return the printer to its rightful owner.  LET ME TELL YOU….2 itty-bitties should not be lugging this piece of work in high-heels across a walk way that hadn’t been cleared.  We grunted, strained, and laughed mostly but we eventually got it in the door!  Never underestimate the will power of 2 very determined beautiful women!  20 minutes later, damage was done.  In my mind, I kept saying this was only a printer…only a printer…haha WITH LEAD ATTACHED TO IT!  hehe.

 

I had a wonderful day today.  I spent time with a friend who really matters and makes my life better just by being in it!   As Laugh-a-lot put it best, “…omg that was hilarious! You are the salsa to my burrito….and that really means a lot. Comes from the heart.”  🙂  She really gives a shit about me!  THAT’S HUGE!

As I reminded my dear friend Super Woman, “I actually give a shit about you” is a club is open and you have to find members and keep them near and dear to you.  🙂  Anyone interested in joining???

 

A CatMan original: Here is my make shift card....until my other one makes it to my home. 🙂

Here’s where I am at currently:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xoAIpQIsq5Q

 

Day…..4.

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Not to complain…but TODAY marks day 4 with no clear voice.  I never thought the irony would exist!  The person that talks the most has no voice!  Oh the agony….ha not really just no voice.  I feel great.

I went to a seminar on Saturday that was utterly so uplifting to my soul and spirit.  I learned a lot about myself in regards to a deeper sense.  Ever just have one of those moments where you just know that you’re supposed to be there?  That was definitely one of those!

I met a lady named J.J.  It was a lovely conversation, lovely material and really got me thinking.  After it, the light bulb went off!  I forgot to let the dog out!  Oh man, this was not good.  As I remembered halfway thru the seminar, it was all I could focus on!  Ahh was the dog going to relieve himself on my new rug?  Or would he wait?  I was terrified!  It’s not like I can call the dog to see what he is doing or HOW he was doing…sigh.  My heart rate started rising, sweat started to form on my top lip, and I was breathing quite heavy….what was I going to do?

Well, I realized at this point that there was only about an hour left so I tried to just pay attention to the speaker.  5 min later….this was my internal dialogue…..”Oh gosh, it will take me 25 minutes to get home and if I leave in the next half hour then that will leave me enough time to be there to let him out.  But what do I do if he lets lose on my new carpet…ugh..I don’t like cleaning!  Lordy, well maybe I could duck out early…but if I do, how soon is too soon without being rude?  Oh I just don’t know what to do…”  Well finally I just stopped abruptly stood up (I don’t even want to fathom what the speaker thought) and just walked out.  At this point I was a one track mind with a mission of saving my carpet from urine!

I scurried out the door looking like a mad woman.  Ran to my car, mind you it’s icy out and I was at risk of falling.  I skidded across the ice and fell flat on my butt.  Thank goodness I have padding, so I bounced back up and was soon on my way.  Thru the streets, around the corner I flew.  I wrote a song to explain the rest!

(Sung to the tune of “Jingle bells”)  http://www.stlyrics.com/lyrics/elf/jinglebells.htm

Maestro please!

Driving on the streets, in a Bug so nice and sweet, Oh speeding thru the lights, crying all the way (bah, ha, ha!).

Beeps and honks blare loud, as I run 3 red lights, oh this really isn’t fun, trying to beat the pee!

OHHH….I forgot, I forgot, I forgot the dog!  Oh what  a stress, if he messed my carpets up tonight, OHHH….I forgot, I forgot, I forgot the dog!  Oh what a stress, and a mess if that dog goes in the house!

Sirens from behind, sliding on the ice, almost home for sure, and still nothing to suffice!  Finally pulling in, all hell behind me, and  as I bust thru the door I see that pub all sad and I….

OHHH…I forgot, I forgot, I forgot the dog!  Oh what a stress, if he messed my carpets up tonight, OHHH….I forgot, I forgot, I forgot the dog!  Oh what a stress, and a mess if that dog goes in the house!

So I walked in the door, just in the nick of time, as that little pub dashed out, to mark it on the line!  He looked with a big sigh, as he finished up his thing, he turned around and ran inside because it’s very cold…

OHHH…I forgot, I forgot, I forgot the dog!  Oh what a stress, if he messed my carpets up tonight, OHHH….I forgot, I forgot, I forgot the dog!  Oh what a stress, and a mess if that dog goes in the house!

All in all, things were taken care of and the dog didn’t relieve himself on my rug.  🙂  So LG, life’s good!

CatMan